Easter season 2005

I have done some really terrible things in my life. I have asked for forgiveness. I know God has forgiven me, but I can't forgive myself. All of us are sinners, and we all continue to sin every day. But I think about all the bad things I've done and all the people I've hurt. I keep asking for forgiveness. I'm trying to think of a way to live my life to atone for everything I've done. God seems to have really been helping me in that regard. In January, my childhood church, Round Hill Presbyterian Church, started a new Saturday night service with a band. I really liked the music and the service. I've been going every week. However, they started to pass out some right-wing literature. They've since seemed to stop doing it, so maybe someone complained. I was particularly offended by literature condemning liberals, Democrats, and gay people. In the past, I would have stomped out and never come back and written them a nasty letter. But I didn't do that this time. I decided to treat them with love and find another solution for myself. I posted some things about this on liberal Christian message board. People came to my rescue. The solution turned out to be to continue at Round Hill but to also attend a the Sixth Presbyterian Church in Pittsburgh. That's the church Mr. Rogers attended. The people there are very friendly and welcoming. It is a More Light church. It's also in the Squirrel Hill section of Pittsburgh, which I love, because I speak Russian and lots of people speak Russian in that section of town. I also got a temp job which was very hard physical labor. As part of my determination, with the Lord's help, to reform and make amends, I did not complain and did the best job I could. I wasn't even sure I could do such a physical job, but found out I could, and that was good for me in the end. The people there were very nice, but I worked so hard! I'm going to church services for the next four days in different areas, but all near my home. I'll be able to go back to Sixth next weekend.