Saturday March 26

The Lord sent me a very interesting dream last night. I have a cousin my age who owns a beauty shop. She is a very conservative Christian. I've gone to her beauty shop on and off for many years. I have long hair which I don't like to cut, so this is an issue for me. For one thing, I jog a lot, and I like being able to tie my hair up and get it out of my face. In this dream, however, I showed up at my cousin's shop to have my hair trimmed. It was early afternoon. There were no customers. My cousin had several employees available, and all the chairs were empty. I asked to have my hair trimmed. My cousin made all kinds of excuses why neither she nor her employees could do it. First, she said all appointments were booked. Then she said the shop was closing early. But the shop stayed open, and no customers showed up. So I kept pressing her, why couldn't someone trim my hair. She kept thinking up excuses. Finally, I came right out and asked. I said, "Tell me the truth. I can handle it. I want the whole truth about why no one is willing to trim my hair." She looked me in the eyes and said, "OK, Laurie, if you really want the truth..." And at that point, DARN, I woke up!

I'm thinking that perhaps this was God's way of answering me about my feelings that I'm an outcast and a reject. Anyway, I am not complaining. I think God has given me more than I deserve, much more, in spite of the fact that I've done a LOT of bad things, and I am a bit of an outcast.

One thing I have learned over this busy holiday season where I've gone to a variety of church services is that the churches in this area need musical talent. I'm talking about extreme southern Allegheny County here, not Pittsburgh itself. Way down here in southern Allegheny County, musical talent is needed in the churches. I was surprised that this was true, but it is. If there's one thing I can do, it's sing. So maybe since I'm not doing so well reaching out to people in the relationship department, perhaps I can communicate better by singing. So I'm going to start working on this.